Now Playing -
"Hacking Democracy." Scary.
Now Eating -
a Hostess cupcake.
Now Feeling -
good.
Now Tweeting
- Melanie
Thank you for the anniversary wishes. We had a lovely meal here. Nicely charred filets, big shrimp, a respectable crab cake, a lobster tail (no adjectives necessary � why embellish lobstahhh?) dessert wine and almost homemade-tasting chocolate ice cream.
I�ve become more conscious lately of the layers of flavor in food. The char on the filet, the dry cocoa-ness of the ice cream, the floury bottom of a slice of pizza. Depression = loss of appetite? Not this girl.
Speaking of the Big D, I�ve kind of left y�all hanging as to how my doctor visits went.
I sat down in my internist�s waiting room next to a stack of pamphlets for Effexor XR. I picked up one and thumbed through it, mentally ticking off my symptoms on the checklist within. I had thought I was doing better; getting out, seeing friends, going to the gym. But when my doctor asked me how I was feeling, it was all I could do to choke out �Not good,� and push the pamphlet across the desk toward him.
All my bloodwork was normal. My vitals, normal. But I was not. He asked whether I wanted to see a therapist (who could prescribe drugs, if warranted) or just take something. I told him I�d done the therapy route as a kid, and was never terribly successful at it, especially since it was done at my parents� behest. I never knew why I was supposed to be there. And I told him that I didn�t feel this was something that needed talking out. I believe this to be a short-term issue.
So I�m taking Effexor XR. The starter dose, 37.5 milligrams, because anything more makes me feel like I�ve taken five Sudafed and could give the Energizer Bunny a run for his money. It�s helping. I feel lighter, more even-keeled. I�m humming, and singing in the shower. And I hadn�t been. The music had gone silent, and now it�s coming back.
More tomorrow, as I blog my way through November.
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